Is there anything a bath can't fix or at least make better?
I came home from church today, tired, stressed, worn out and covered in half-masticated cooky and salami (woo! childcare. Better to be a serviette than a diaper I guess) One hot bath later and I'm ready to re-attack my to-do list like I'd slept for a week.
I seriously almost broke down and cried because my video game avatar wasn't pretty enough, because obviously that matters so much in a single-player game. It was a low point.
It's been a long week of working hard and having almost nothing to show for it. A much depleted bank account for paying the bills and student loan, only slightly more carpet space while re-arranging the duplex and getting rid of things, slightly less hair and an immaculate digital inventory list from corralling, cajoling and otherwise herding artists. But nothing I can take a picture of and be like "look here! See what I did. I am a productive member of society." Which is really the hardest part of last week.
But a hot bath and a 20 minute power-nap goes a long way to making it worthwhile.
Needless to say, I'm looking forward to this week, and a blissfully-holiday free January.
Hears to you're accomplishments, large or small, significant and only noticeable by you. May you do everything you wanted to and be invigorated after. Or greeted by steamy bubbles.
(And to any character design artists out there: While I appreciate your dedication to realism and realistic representations of the female form in media, I do not want to be reminded of the extra 15 pounds I've been trying to loose since I became aware of what the "accepted" look for a girl's body should be somewhere in my fragile teen years. I know on an intellectual level that the examples established by magazines and Hollywood are outliers on a scale of female body shapes, but you try telling your uterus anything certain weeks of the year. Really. I'm trying to escape reality, give the avatar the super power of eating all the chocolate-chip cooky dough she wants without having to run for a league afterward. Best super power ever.)
You look great. In fact you look so great, that if I looked even half as good as you did, I would need like 5 other things to be self conscious about to fill the empty void that would leave.. Besides, I've pretty much had to grow up with the fact that the worlds most iconic video game character is a freakishly accurate visual representation of myself in blue overalls. So realism, doesn't necessarily correlate between accurate physical renderings..
ReplyDeleteI know in my head that I have a healthy body, even my mom's Wii fit tells me that. The Wii was even nice enough to tell me I was healthy after gaining 4 pounds from eating too much pie and turkey, but I think we all, regardless of what we look like, see someone else and go "If I just looked like that I would be happier/more secure." And when I'm stressed it's harder to ignore that little voice that keeps telling me I'm fat because I'm not a size 0.
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